Funny how in a span of a week, I ended a friendship to an acquaintance who crossed the line and renewed a friendship (albeit slowly) a friend who I kept my distance from due to the negativity of their strained relationship.
One friendship was a casual friend who I have met a few years back and he was a cool guy. We enjoyed hanging out and we exchange emails. We rarely contact and suddenly a few weeks back started to talking to me again. We caught up and started talking to via chat programs. Then suddenly yesterday, my supposedly straight guy friend asked me about my relationship with M and proceeded to ask me if I would make a better choice of a boyfriend for me that he will treat me better than M. WAIT A MINUTE, this guy is a like classic Asian frat guy asking me if he would be better for me?!? How did this happen? So basically he was “curious” to being with a guy and wanted me to be his first guy…..HELL NO…..(though honestly, in the back of my mind, who didn’t want to convert a straight guy over?!?!?….) The worst part that he continue to pursue me after I said no! So I told him that we’re not talking any more and blocked all chat programs. It’s was just too weird for me and more than once I thought he was bipolar.
Another old friend of mines tonight gotten in touch with me to see if I would be her model again for her photo project I done with her 3 years ago. The immediate reaction was: “should I?….probably not” This is an old good friend who I kept my distance due to the constants fights between her and husband with me getting in caught of the middle of it more than once. Then a few years ago I said “enough” and just decided to keep my distance and not go to any of the events that they invited me to. I really didn’t need that negativity in my life. Then, tonight after talking a bit and with her addressing the issue that strained our relationship (which I didn’t bring up) and with her apologizing for all the fights that she put me and another dear friend through. It was only then, I felt that she sincerely meant it and we decided to make a point to meet up again early next month and go from there and finally introduce them to M. I don’t know what to expect and where we can go from there, but all I can say is one step at a time. Only when I see with my own eyes if they have changed. After all it has been 3 years. I am a different person from 3 years ago. I have changed…maybe so did they. We shall see.
I’m outz,
C
